Here's the thing about me. When things are going well, I'm all in. I'm a good friend, I keep up...I return calls. When the world turns to what can only be considered my personal shit (perspective people....I don't live in Africa)...I'm quiet.
It's not total shit...it just isn't fun right now. Problems with the ex...problems with my living situation..just stuff I prefer to ignore. Except I can't when I have this forum in which to express myself. So I avoid that too.
I miss my cyber-friends...and the ones who became real friends. Yes that's you I'm talking to. I hope you are all 'ok'....cuz as far as I'm concerned 'ok' is good these days.
I love my job. I HAVE a job. I have a good job. I got splashed with 'holy water' five times by the Archbishop of Florida today. That's a long story..but a true one. He had a Little Bow Peep staff with him...it looked a little strange to me, the former Presbyterian (I think), converted and sort of lapsed Jew. He was sporting a gold medallion that surely is worth more than my IRA. I wonder if my body made steam when it made contact.
We had a hospice patient in our unit today that got to me. She is an 82 year old woman who's daughter lives 15 min away but has MS so can't drive to come see her. So, she sits there all day ALONE. Dying from colon cancer. Alone. The holy water throwing Archbishop came and threw some on her today...only it made her happy. Like she was me and had a celebrity sighting happy. She ate her lunch..for the first time all week. She sat up in bed..straight up...for the first time in weeks. They are moving her to a nursing home and she asked me to visit her. Because nobody visits her. Wow...perspective.
Sorry for the bummer of a post. I love hospice...I love it for a lot of reasons but mostly because it makes me feel good about my life. It makes me want to make a difference while I'm here. It reminds me to let the people I know how much I love them. They might need me one day...as the only person sitting by their side in a hospice unit....and more selfishly..I just might....and probably will, need them.
It's not total shit...it just isn't fun right now. Problems with the ex...problems with my living situation..just stuff I prefer to ignore. Except I can't when I have this forum in which to express myself. So I avoid that too.
I miss my cyber-friends...and the ones who became real friends. Yes that's you I'm talking to. I hope you are all 'ok'....cuz as far as I'm concerned 'ok' is good these days.
I love my job. I HAVE a job. I have a good job. I got splashed with 'holy water' five times by the Archbishop of Florida today. That's a long story..but a true one. He had a Little Bow Peep staff with him...it looked a little strange to me, the former Presbyterian (I think), converted and sort of lapsed Jew. He was sporting a gold medallion that surely is worth more than my IRA. I wonder if my body made steam when it made contact.
We had a hospice patient in our unit today that got to me. She is an 82 year old woman who's daughter lives 15 min away but has MS so can't drive to come see her. So, she sits there all day ALONE. Dying from colon cancer. Alone. The holy water throwing Archbishop came and threw some on her today...only it made her happy. Like she was me and had a celebrity sighting happy. She ate her lunch..for the first time all week. She sat up in bed..straight up...for the first time in weeks. They are moving her to a nursing home and she asked me to visit her. Because nobody visits her. Wow...perspective.
Sorry for the bummer of a post. I love hospice...I love it for a lot of reasons but mostly because it makes me feel good about my life. It makes me want to make a difference while I'm here. It reminds me to let the people I know how much I love them. They might need me one day...as the only person sitting by their side in a hospice unit....and more selfishly..I just might....and probably will, need them.
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9 comments:
As sad as it can be sometimes, you seem to have such a rewarding job. That's great!
I'm happy you have that job Mer, I think it brings out the best in you. And I think there's a lot of best in you to bring out.
I'm ok. I'm better than ok. I'm glad to hear from you. I have been thinking about you.
I miss your posts, but I understand. The story today wasn't a bummer, it was actually nice and makes me want to go to a nursing home and visit people. So instead of being a bummer it was inspirational.
We need to get together.
I hope your living situation works out well and the ex thing, well, good luck.
XOXO
Keep on keeping on.......you're an inspiration!
I appreciate this Meredith. Today would be my Mother's birthday. She died of colon cancer about 1 1/2 ago and the Hospice people were amazing and unbelievably helpful.
Ok that's just sad. I hope you go visit her. And bring some holy water - you can pick it up at any Catholic church. Or you know, down the hall.
So sorry to hear your having trouble with your living situation. I hope that resolved itself with the new month. Did you move? On an unrelated note, I saw the pics of your HS reunion that got tagged on facebook. All I have to say is that EVERYONE you went to HS with is incredibly tan. How is it you only know tan people? Weren't there any whities like me? What a great pic of tan, beautiful people!
Hey Mer. Have you decided to stop blogging altogether, or are you just on hiatus? I miss your posts! (but realize you're probably very busy). Hope it's all going well.
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